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Well, I just got back from Dallas after spending a week with my Dad and Stepmom. My daughters and I flew out there because my Dad's health is declining and he was in the hospital. It was great to spend the time with my family....but my eating was out of control!!!
We ate out for most of our meals.....which included fried chicken, creamed corn, bread/muffins, hamburgers with mayo and buttered bread, food smothered in bbq sauce, and lots of ice cream. There was no chance of eating light in Texas!!! At least not with my parents.
My daughters and I tried to take daily walks to offset some of the food consumption. I weighted myself this morning and I'm back up to 152. And did I mention we took family photos while we were in Texas? HOLY SHIT! I got a good look at how big I actually am. I've always been the petite one in the family....I'm just in shock.
On a thyroid note: the first morning we woke up in Dallas I forgot to take my Synthroid. The girls and I decided to walk down to the local bakery for coffee and breakfast, which was yummy! But when we got back to my parent's house I started feeling really yucky. My head felt heavy and I couldn't get my mind or body to function. I sat in a depressed state for the next hour. Then I remembered my meds.... It was crazy how fast my body wanted to shut down because I hadn't taken my meds. It made me realize how much better I've been feeling lately!
Today is a new day and I will stay OP and lose those extra pounds I gained!!
I have noticed that my desk at work is a food trigger. When I sit down to start typing or talk on the phone, I have a need to grab something to eat. It's crazy!
Cheer practice has been going great. I actually have the energy to work with the girls...and I look forward to it every week! Although I'm still having a lot of hypothyroid symptoms....maybe my meds will need to be adjusted when I go to the doctors next month.
I hope to post soon!
I also think my TOM is coming soon. I'm bloated and irritable, and it would help explain my extra eating...I hate TOM bloating because it plays havoc with my WI. Ugh! We'll see how I do Monday morning.
Well, we are off to San Jose and an afternoon of eating poorly. No wonder I don't look forward to going out anymore...
I spent big bucks at the grocery store yesterday to make sure I was stocked with the right foods. I even bought some lemons for my favorite "water with lemon" drink. It is so refreshing! I plan to cook every night now that I'm off of work for a while....but my battle will now be portion control!!
We have another party to go to Saturday in San Jose for Ed's family. It seems like we have been invited to a ton of parties now that I'm dieting! This means I will have to save my flex points for it...damn.
My two daughters have been helping me stay on track. Yesterday they were scooping out Snickers Ice Cream and I was dying for a bite. My 12 year old gave me a spoonful, but said, "That's it...no more. Don't have another bite!" I wanted to slap her and hug her all at the same time. Sigh...
I didn't weigh in yesterday because I was too chicken. But I plan to do it first thing in the morning....I'm crossing fingers for a loss!
On a health note, I've been REALLY tired the last couple of days. My body feels so heavy and I feel like I HAVE to sit or I will collapse. I go back for blood work in a month to see if my meds are the right dosage. I'm thinking I might need something stronger! Maybe I just need a good night sleep!
Anyway, I've been reading a really fluffy novel by Jude Deveraux. It's interesting, but I'm really Jonesing for some good literature. I recently read Mansfield Park for the second time, and I've been searching for my Wuthering Heights book so I can reread all my favorite parts. There is something satisfying about reading great English literature on a hot summer day, drinking a glass of ice water with a slice of lemon. My all time favorite is Pride and Prejudice. Maybe I should make a trip to Barnes and Noble...
My Mom just gave me a book about an odd man in eighteenth century England. She said she hadn't read it because it sounded boring...which means I'll love it! I think I'll hunt around for that book in my library (okay, it's a spare bedroom...but I like referring to it as my library). I'm off to slice some lemons!!
Coffee 2pts.
Caramel Rice Cakes 2 pts.
Thai Chicken & Veggies (Lean Cuisine) 4pts.
Lemon Cake 2pts.
Whopper Jr (no mayo) 6pts.
Chocolate Brownie Ice Cream 2pts.
And I still have 4 pts. left if I want a late night snack!! Did I tell you I love Weight Watchers??
Blond Update: I am a newly sassy blond....and it's fabulous. Loads of compliments and a few double takes. Nice!
Puppy Update: Our household just isn't the same without her. :-(
My hear is broken....
She had Parvo, which explains all the plant/grass eating. Last night she wouldn't get up, or eat, or drink. My kids were in a panic. We took her to the vets this morning and they told us she was too far gone.
Rest in peace little girl.
Should I be a blond again? Will it help my confidence? Am I kidding myself? We'll find out later this afternoon!!!
On another note, I weighed myself this morning and I wish I hadn't. I just had my official weigh in yesterday so I don't know why I decided to get on the scale. But I did....and it said 150. 2lbs less than yesterday. I'm upset because I know I shouldn't weigh myself more than once a week....and if it's a fluke and I am back up to 152 tomorrow, then I'll be kicking myself. I MUST stay away from the scale.
Well, I'm off to dye my hair, and then I coach Cheer this evening. I'm looking forward to it!!
P.S. - When friends used to ask me "How're you doing?", I always responded by saying "I'm okay...tired." Well, I'm happy to report that I haven't said I was tired in 3 days! Not once. And those of you who suffer from hypothyroidism can understand how great it is to not feel tired!
I do notice that I'm feeling better during the day, and my appetite hits full swing around 3 - 3:30pm. I eat a small to medium sized breakfast (4 points), then a 5 or 6 point lunch around 1:00pm...and then I'm starved in the afternoon! My stomach actually grumbles! I wonder if it has to do with my thyroid meds??? I never used to get this hungry between lunch and dinner. I'm really struggling to stay within my points because of it.
So to curb my appetite, I just ate a high fiber tortilla with 2 oz. of chicken breast and 2 tablespoons of salsa. YUM! Except that dinner is 2 1/2 hours away and I'm already up there in points. Damn.
Another issue has been headaches.....daily. They could be a side effect of the meds, or a withdrawal from sweets? I'm definitely getting enough water....so I'm not sure what's up.
So, I'll continue to play it safe and talk about surfacey stuff... :-)
I ate good yesterday and stayed within my points. This morning I woke up feeling MUCH better and started the day with egg beaters, 1/2 a sausage and lots of coffee. As you can tell I'm trying to up the protein and stay away from my usual morning favorites....bagels and cereal. I plan on having a chicken breast and spinach salad for lunch, and then a small amount of good carbs with dinner. It should be another good food day!
I wonder how much food effects my thyroid? Most of what I have researched claims that food has little to no effect on your thyroid production...but I swear I felt so crummy yesterday because my thyroid was "off". Could it have been all the crap I ate on the 4th of July?
Feeling better is my number one priority right now because Cheerleading practice starts next week for the junior high team I coach. I started coaching when I was in college, then stopped to get married and have a family. A few years ago my daughters asked me to coach their school team, and it's been a blast ever since. Last year the girls made it to Nationals in Disneyland, which was a milestone for our little farming school. My oldest daughter will start high school in the fall, but my youngest is going into 7th grade and remains on the team. I've been dreading the start of cheerleading because I have had ZERO energy and no motivation. I have 4 new girls on the team and it is such hard work to get them up to speed with my veterans. I'm hoping my thyroid meds start helping with my energy...I'm going to need it.
Well, I'm off to REFILL the holes my dog dug up. Yes, I did fill them up yesterday morning and watered my few remaining plants, but my sweet puppy was busy last night. I guess she's trying to help me get more exercise.
- Mood:
optimistic
I now feel bloated and disgusting...what a waste. I need to get moving. I'm going to work outside with my teenage daughters to clean up our yard. We have a 1 year old dog that loves to dig holes and eat my plants, so we have a lot of work to do. Maybe I can burn off some of those brownies I ate????
My weigh in day is Monday, so hopefully I can stay on plan for the next two days. Although, I'm sure I already blew it for the week...and I'll die if I actually gained!
UPDATE: It's now around 2:30pm and I really feel crummy. My head feels foggy, I have no energy and I just want to curl up in bed. My boyfriend and I were supposed to go out tonight with friends, but I just told him I really wasn't up to it. I know he's disappointed, but I just can't get dressed up and go out...not today. I'm not in the mood to be sociable....
- Mood:
crappy
I weigh 154lbs.
Damn, that's hard to type! I'm only 5'3 and never weighed more than 130 (except in pregnancy), so 154 is a hard freakin number to digest. But it's real....just like me. I'm a real person after all....not the Barbie doll my friends and family thought I was. And like I said in my previous post, I am newly diagnosed with hypothyroid.
So, Tuesday was my first day on Weight Watchers and my thyroid meds. I didn't feel much different...still had low energy and felt emotionally indifferent to everything. I stayed within my points range of 22 and managed to grocery shop for low fat/calorie items (like yummy ice cream for only 2 points a serving).
Wednesday was about the same...nothing good, nothing bad. And I stayed within my Weight Watcher's points.
Thursday (yesterday) was a bit better....maybe because I knew I was going to have a 3 day weekend. Either way, my energy level felt up, so I took a leisurely 1 mile walk. The exercise was nice, but I definitely couldn't do a fast walk because my limbs felt so heavy after only a few minutes. But I kept going and rewarded myself with a glass of wine when I was done (a girl has to have the proper motivation).
Today is Friday, the 4th of July, and we're going to a BBQ. I'm not sure if there will be "diet friendly" foods there, so I'll try to make the right choices. My energy still seems good today, and I haven't been super hungry. Hopefuly this is a sign that my meds are starting to kick in....who knows!
I'll keep you posted....
I'm not much of a journaler (if that's even a word). I originally set up this account to stay in touch with my sister when she went to live in England. I probably don't journal because my life never seemed journalable (again...using an adjective that may not exist!). I've gone through a couple of husbands, had a couple of kids, and mastered many different careers...big deal! But now, at 35 years old, I have something I want to keep track of....my health.
This week I was diagnosed with Hypothyroidism, a condition caused by my thyroid being underactive and not doing its job. I had originally gone to the doctors because I was afraid of having early signs of diabetes (my Dad has type 1 diabetes). I had gained 20lbs in just 8 months, along with severe depression, total exhaustion, super dry skin, brain fog, etc. I had started to feel like I was 60 years old with the onset of dementia!
My doctor had immediate concerns about my thyroid, which was confirmed from my lab results showing an elevated TSH of 9.11. She prescribed me with 50mcg Synthroid and recommended Weight Watchers to address the weight gain.
So here I am...ready to journal my ups and downs! I can't guarantee I will post regularly, but I sure hope I do....for the sake of tracking my progress and having a documented trail of my success. Because I will be successful...hopefully. :-)
So, I'm at Open House at the school my two daughters attend, and I'm having a conversation with youngest daughter, Caitlan. We're discussing some of the other Moms that we've seen. You could say we we're being completely catty, and at 11 yrs. old, Caitlan is killer with the quick wit & biting reality.
She has me in stiches as she discusses the mess-of-a-mom we just saw in the Library...leopard print bra strap hanging out of a white tank top, jeans that probably fit 5 years ago, high heal wedges, and a perm (oh yes...a perm). "Someone needs to tell her she's not twenty anymore!" Yes, baby, someone does...but no one will. At this point, Caitlan is grabbing my hand. She's looking at me with so much love and pride. She leans over and whispers in my ear...."I'm so glad you look like a Mom."
Huh.
I'm speechless.
Was that a compliment?
Huh.
